Flaxseed Oil

I would reccommend this to anyone with skin complaints. I'm sure this has been the reason my skin has improved - parts of it feel almost normal. Healthy skin is evident below the patches of dryness and my shedding has decreased.

I received the extra fancy Flaxseed Oil from Quintessence (the natropaths who work with Allergenics) yesterday. I foolishly believed the back of the bottle which claimed it tasted good. It is yet another medicine to force myself to consume. I much perfer capsules of which I have some remaining from my supermarket. I am still waiting for those which are coming from Isis.

I never mentioned receiving my medicines from Quintessence. They arrived on Friday and were beautifully wrapped in green tissue paper, an orange ribbon threaded with a fake flower. Enclosed in this package was; eczema cream, a jar of pills for GI (gastro-intestinal, that's the stomach/bowel area) health and pills to aid sleeping (they produce melotonin which we produce naturally). I like the smell of the eczema cream but my husband doesn't, I haven't used it much but was attempted to test it by using only on the left side of my body. My GI pills I was to take for five days and having come to the end of this cycle I hope it clears up my toilet habits (if not then I need to worry). I haven't yet used the sleeping pills, a blessing.

Weight Watchers

Two weeks ago I completed a 13 week programme of Weight Watchers at Work (I even got a prize). We started back again today. I had hoped to loose 2 kgs but only lost 1.3. Thinking that my current diet was close to the old Core plan I asked one of the members. Sadly you are to allocate points for any nuts on the Core plan, I eat a lot of these. I really hope I do manage to continue loosing weight, I would be very upset if this made me gain weight instead. I did unfortunately eat fries for lunch as I coudln't find anything else within my strict contraints. I had hot soy since I don't drink coffee and can't have hot chocolate, I will get used to it. (Thankfully they didn't charge me much.)

I wonder if my skin was ever really better in that brief period where it appeared to be. Perhaps my dedication to not scratching had merely paid off. So far my skin is not responding. The night before last my entire chest was weeping. Last night I sobbed for a good half an hour at the pain. I've started putting plasters on the smaller areas with broken skin, I wish I had large bandages.

One Day At A Time

Today is day 3 of my new diet (lifestyle?) and as I told my father at lunch only 87 days to go.

I was given a good tip from a colleague who chooses to not eat wheat or sugar. She said to feel satisfied I need to include protein, such as nuts, with each meal. Having already discovered how much I enjoy peanut butter on gluten free toast breakfast is taken care of but I can't eat almonds all day.

My goal at the moment with both my diet and my skin (which is the cause of all this) is to take each day as it comes. Like the advice given to chronic worries; do one thing at a time. So, borrowing from AA (scary cult that they are) I will deal with one day at a time. Thinking about the pain or the dauntingly boring diet will not help, today is today, I will not think about the future, I need only survive today and hope that tomorrow will be better.